May I remind you that the category for this post is under Want to do Someday.
It has been a long while since my last heartbreak. That already is a valid reason for not wanting to have another one anytime soon. Right?
Smug couples and guys I hang around with, you can say all you want. Of course, I do want to be coupled someday. But don’t push because you have no idea of the real situation. Here are my other excuses for choosing to remain single:
1. Magic Thinking – "I don’t have to do anything. No special effort is required. When the time comes, it comes."
2. Perfectionism – "Though I don’t feel the magic with this sweet, loving, caring, persistent guy, I should not let him get away." vs. "What if your Someone arrives only to find you coupled with the one you settled with?"
3. Choices – As it was my decision to prioritize work (as it was where most of my energies were spent) than to do something else, it is a subconscious selection to remain single.
4. Baggage – Somewhere deep in my head there is this want to get back with X or an unfinished business with Y, and other stuff I need to deal with
While conronting these 4 demons,life feels unpredictable. I am scared shitless. But I am doing it. Little by little.
Forgive me, D. I wish I had something better than this truth to offer you.
So my friends, this is the result of the Lovelife/Kilig Factor recent events that has been bugging in my head for the past 8 weeks. I am glad I had the time to sit down and verbalize the thoughts in my head. I hope the rantings here got you confused as me when I did this.
We can write this entry off to SUPREME BOREDOM! I need another distraction.